“with this ring I tie myself to you”
the vow you made only a year ago
and I hope wherever you are now
she’s watching as you struggle to breathe
while I swing from the rafters
with black ribbon around my neckKatherine Pilkey
January 23, 2020
How am I supposed to look at the women who raised me and tell them I hate the woman I’ve become.
What am I supposed to do when on the brightest of days the world seems dull
Tell me how am I supposed to set an example for the siblings who look up to me when I cant even follow the examples that were left for me
Who am I supposed to call when all my anxieties are centred around the ones I love
Pleas…
I slept with my rapist
In the most innocent of ways
My head was on his chest
His arms wrapped around me
I felt like I was floating
I must have been wearing rose coloured glasses
Because his grip had been tight
His hands raked over my skin
He tore my clothing from me despite my protests
He pinned me down and took me as he wanted
Silent tears streamed down my face
And when he was finished he took…
He grabbed at me and his fingertips seared into my skin
He tasted like cheap beer and he wouldn’t let me go
His grip tightened as he pulled me close and my body gave in
He took advantage of the slight weakness he saw
Before leaving me in the alley
I slept alone, if one could even call it sleep
Tears streamed down my cheeks and I wasn’t sure they’d ever stop
How could I have possibly gotten myself…
nothing feels right and i don’t know what to do
you know it’s bad when you’re sitting on the floor of the shower, hoping the water will mask your sobs
Some nights you just feel extra lonely
But that’s okay.
“I’m standing on the edge, waiting for you to push me.”— @sixwordssayitall
